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You are viewing the most recent 20 entries November 10th, 2009November 9th, 2009jedijenchan, posting in animechicago @ : Anime Meet 11/21/09 For all the details, location information and to RSVP, please visit the forum thread: http://kisekinohana.net/JAPC/phpBB3/vie ****PLEASE NOTE**** If you are unable to view the event, you will have to be registered to the forums, and request permission to view all posts to the event announcement forum. *Information on how to request permission is here:* http://kisekinohana.net/JAPC/phpBB3/vie Tags: anime meet jedijenchan @ : Dead End I cannot seem to be at the computer for a very long time, sitting at my desk because it really hurts my neck and shoulders. I see a lot of people around me, that still have a job, and are able to afford the things they want and need, enjoying a seeming carefree life of financial stability. I guess I am envious of this carefree lifestyle. I remember what it was like to be able to buy that video game/DVD/book I wanted and not feel like it will bankrupt me. Yeah, there are a few people that seem to try to understand, and seem to care, but it all feels a bit insincere at times. Don't get me wrong I appreciate help, but I don't want to feel looked down upon either. I guess people think I'm a real loser. Admitted I don't have a lot of friends to help and support me, and I actually feel more and more isolated and shunned by people now that I am jobless and useless to them because I cannot afford eating out and excess "fun" spending. Yes I bring it up a lot, but it hurts to be in this financially strapped situation. Do you feel it's my fault for being in this situation? I certainly do not feel that I deliberately lost my job. I certainly do not feel that I have done nothing in these months I have been unemployed. I look for jobs at least twice a week, most of which I don't bother applying for because I'm clearly not qualified. The ones I do find I apply for and hear nothing back from. You know how that makes a person feel after working 13 years yet you are qualified for nothing? It's easy for one to say "suck it up and put you big girl pants on" when your not in the situation yourself. Look, college is just not affordable right now, and aside from all the grants and what not there are potentially, it won't cover the entire costs of college. I have to figure out how to pay for it somehow, and it's just not an expense that fits into the budget right now. Yes, it really sucks and hurts me that I cannot get an education, but that is the harsh reality for me. Well, I'm going to have to go without my COBRA coverage. The nine month 65% ARRA subsidy has not been extended by congress, so my monthly payment will be $574.15 12/01/09. No way I can afford that. So I went shopping for health insurance on my own. I found a Blue Cross Blue Shield plan for about $270 and month(with dental coverage!), that I think will fit into the budget. It's looks like it's actually a bit better coverage, and my doctor is in the network. I'd really like to know how they get away with charging $574.15/ month for such crappy coverage. Anyway, I know that a positive outlook is the best thing to have, but it's not easy when time after time the number of negative things that happen outweigh the positive. I know I am suffering from depression. I know that people don't like to deal with people like me who are depressed and find the negative over the positive. I know that I hide my depression and loneliness when face to face with people, it's like a mask I wear all the time to try to find some sort of enjoyment out of my misery. It's like everyone around me just is progressing, and I am not. I try, but for every step up, I am knocked back four. Something good in my life happens, I am punished(usually within days) for it by something bad happening. Trying to end this on a positive note, the only thing I seem to enjoy anymore is watching anime. I guess it's a bit of an escape for me from my problems. I have been able to watch a lot that I have downloaded, and been able to catch up on anime that I have wanted to see, that I used to not have time for when I was working. All I can say is thank goodness for fansubbers and those who do scanlations. As much as i want to support the anime/manga distribution industry right now, I am just not financially able, so it's actually nice to be able to see and read some of the things I want to without breaking the bank. Anyway, thanks for reading. Sorry for the mood swings. Pap test tomorrow. yay. Current Mood:  blahtimikun @ : So what do you do when you don't have time for anything? Jewel needs me to break down large and heavy loads then price and process them. over the years I've have been able to build up some decent upper body strength but it's hard to lose weight when your in a meat freezer busting your ass. Also being social is fairly frowned upon. they expect you to just work hours with almost no human contact. OF course we joke and laugh to our managers dismay, but that's what keeps us going. Being at PSC is so different. I walk, that sums it up. I walk around a section of the mall with a radio and a small handlebar like object called a Detect. There are small metal buttons all over the mall spaced about twenty paces each. I have to hit one every ten minutes, which is a lot of time for twenty paces. the reason for the sensor is simple if a store needs help they can look at the detects and see who is in the area to help. They ask we don't walk together, but if we cross paths we can chat for a few minutes and continue on. Its a very simple job, but it has a lot of responsibility. I have to help people with what ever they may need, directions, information, assistance, and so much else. Seeing as it's a north suburban mall it's pretty much full of snotty suburbanites, so it can be annoying if you have no people skills. The big things are lock outs (in which people lock themselves out of their car an we have to open it), Jump starts, and Escorts (if someone is being followed or feel stalked) other than that I walk. There's no heavy lifting and I'm outside so it works a completely different set of muscles and I may actually lose some weight. The only downer is I can't enter stores, so I can really shop around :p I really like it at PSC, I kinda forgot what things like respect and dignity are like. I've been the beaten housewife of Jewel Osco for far to long. I'm concerned though because when I generally start liking a job it turns to shit after a while. I've decided to hold off quiting either job until after the holidays. PSC may just be stringing me along for holiday coverage and I can't afford to lose Jewel until I can get medical from PSC which takes a few months. It really sucks especially this time of year. Meat Markets BIGGEST holiday is Thanksgiving and Mall Security would be the day AFTER so I know I'm in for a couple of days from hell. Mix that with Christmas and I'm gonna be a total wreak.(I expect the day after Christmas to be a total cluster fuck...) At least I'm able to pull in some decent cash for a while. I'll have a Perc Card which will makes me desirable to other security outfits because they don't have to train me thus putting me on the top of their lists. So I feel like I've stumble on to something better for now. November 7th, 2009November 6th, 2009November 5th, 2009jedijenchan @ : bad day... Started water for shower, and bathtub clogged, backed up, and is full of standing water mess. What a lovely start to laundry day. Going to Wallgreens to get some kind of drain stuff, and hope it works so that I don't have to move all kinds of stuff in the storage room for Wayne to come and rod out the drain. Back from Wallgreens(they had buy one get one on their store brand!). Used drain gel stuff...waiting 30 minutes for it to unclog...and of course, as it be my luck, someone is using the washers. fuck shit damn. still have not had my shower. After 30 minutes, the drain is not clearing up....may to have to call Wayne and move stuff out of the storage room so he can rod it out. lovely day, really. After running hot hot water in the drain for a bit, the drain has now unclogged..finally and maybe I'll be able to take a shower soon...after I clean up the mess in the bathtub. >< Well, after cleaning the bathtub, I was able to take my shower and now I have to see if the person that was doing laundry is done. I hope this day gets better....soon! LUNCH TIME ALREADY!? My back hurts. fuck. Current Mood:  pissed offCurrent Music: m.o.v.e. - Kiss Me Now November 4th, 2009jedijenchan @ : 11-digit dialing starts Saturday in Chicago - Chicago Breaking News 11-digit dialing starts Saturday in Chicago - Chicago Breaking News 11-digit dialing starts Saturday in Chicago November 4, 2009 5:40 AM | 5 Comments On Saturday, Chicago will officially start use of its third area code, 872. And with that comes the first day of 11-digit dialing in the city, according to the Illinois Commerce Commission. That means that residents will no longer be able to dial seven digits to reach a local number inside their same area code. Callers will have to dial 1 plus the area code and the number to complete a call in the city. The 872 code joins the 312 and 773 area codes within Chicago city limits. (map) Present phone numbers will not change. The new 872 area code will be assigned only for new telephone numbers within Chicago. The city Department of Business Affairs and Consumer Protection advises residents and businesses to prepare for 11-digit dialing by making sure equipment with automatic dialing features is programmed with all 11-digits for each telephone number. --Associated Press Tags: news trekkieb47 @ : Charitable Organization suggestions Let me know who they are, where they are on the web and why you think they are a good organization. Thanks everyone, I really appreciate it. Berry Current Mood:  determinedNovember 2nd, 2009megatokyocomic @ : Rant [1008] "Happier News" I've been busy over the past week, but it's been a good busy, not the "keep myself from thinking hard about things" busy that marked my summer. For one thing, my job at SideReel has led into them opening up my very own anime blog (because the Internet needs more anime blogs) called AnimeReel, where I've spent the last week giving it some daily love. You can rest assured that this blog will be updated daily, as I write for it regularly during work ... October 28th, 2009pennyarcaderss @ : Comic: Twisp & Catsby In: The Visitation New Comic: Twisp & Catsby In: The Visitation jedijenchan @ : Happy Halloween! Current Music: ON/OFF - Futatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi jedijenchan @ : LJ vs Facebook, round one.... I'm still checking the communities here, and my flist at least once a week, but I have been checking my facebook more often, like daily. However, I am not going to give up LJ. I won't be posting here as much as I used to I suppose. If I have a longer story, or something more meaningful or substantial that's more than just one line, I will be posting it here. I feel that nothing pivotal has happened in my life to merit a post, but when I do, you will read it. ^_^ Since my LJ is connect via RSS to facebook, my posts here will show up as "notes" on my facebook. Jen Gedonius | Create Your Badge  Current Mood:  geekydragonboy042 @ : *cue dramatic music* I'm a standby juror only, so I won't even know for sure if I need to go until the day before. My scheduled day is the Tuesday before Thanksgiving. Ugh! Current Mood:  not amused |
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